I have no where else to go.

Under His Wings by the Ruppes

You could look back at my life from 2 different viewpoints. If you look at it from the perspective of what the world would say about it. You’d say what a mess. How did all that happen to one person? If you look at it from an eternal perspective you would say, wow every step of the way GOD was teaching her and helping her see what she couldn’t. Here’s the quick of it all. My being here is a miracle. I don’t have it all figured out and it is not easy to live in my shoes but two things I have learned. When I make mistakes or bad choices I am not forsaken. I am tracked by GOD who loves me infinitely, most of the time in spite of me.

I know there are only two things that have saved my life this far. The first is the powerful, complete and soul satisfying Word of God. It tells me what I need to hear and what I don’t want to hear concerning me. It tells me the truth when the world will lie to me to keep me stuck. The other is the fact that I refuse to give up on God’s promise.  I said a long time ago and I say it still. Not this girl, not this day. I am not giving up on the promises of GOD. I am not giving up on what I can’t see.

That’s where we bog down, we want to see it to believe it. I have seen so many times GOD has been reliable, faithful and true there’s no need to see it. I just walk toward it in faith. The promise is all I have until Heaven and I am staking my life on it.  If you can see it you don’t need faith for it.

My life isn’t even in the shadow of where I’d like it to be by temporal standards. Actually, I am failing as the world watches. By eternal standards, the failure is happening, it is necessary and like every thing else it will move me to where GOD wants me to be. See, I said my life is a miracle. Although things I hoped would’t happen again are. I have to trust that keeping on, keeping on will move me to the place I need to be.

I don’t like it at all in the temporal. I abhor it!!!! In the eternal, and that’s how I have to keep focused these days, I love it. I love an ABBA who makes all things good because he started a good work in me. I surrender right there and say oh my LORD, my precious darling Savior teach me and grow me.

I don’t know what you are facing today. I can tell you this you will follow your thinking. It is ok to be hurt, ok to even cry but don’t think for one minute GOD doesn’t love you and have a better plan than you can imagine. CLING to what is true and dismiss anything you don’t know to be true.  The verses are many I could provide here. The one that has been an anchor for me is Eph 3:20. I’m not going to quote it. I want you to look it up for your sake. I run to Him. I cling to HIM. I am under his wings.

Say Amen

This right here. #askmewhy this is why I keep going on. This is my faithful GOD who is able. I can’t do it alone but I don’t have to. I don’t have all the answers and at times life is painful but love anyway, hope anyway, give anyway and do the next right thing because for sure GOD will be faithful. He never promised me I’d be loved in this life except by him. I have had more than my share of sorrow but I have the love and devotion of a Father who lets me call him Abba who lets me cry out to him and who will give me a testimony from the test. I can’t lose. It’s always been all him anyway. Click here and celebrate that one day, one day we will be home. Don’t give up, finish your race, have the right motive and agree with GOD.  Say Amen

When are you going to live?

NOW is……….. NOW! stop waiting for pat answers, perfect people or perfect circumstances. Don’t count on your feelings to line up to do what you are called to do. Launch out and do it …… forget the things that want to weigh you down. LET THEM GO! They are not of GOD! HE said to race … racing is forward… upward … higher…. farther …. it leaps over your fear to your faith… put a lot of distance between your fear and your faith. The same JESUS that saves you keeps you and is cheering you on… stop living low and getting by… HOPE DREAM BELIEVE SING PRAISE RACE …. RUN RUN RUN and don’t stop until you are out of breath and life.

Walk With Me

Walk With Me The Ball Brothers  <<<click link for testimony and song

I have had the rare privilege of having a couple of seasons in my life walking with people who sharpened me. The Bible says, faithful are the wounds of a friend. I am blessed to have experienced someone honest enough with me to not only tell me the truth but to stand with me as I walked it out in obedience.  Sure some of God’s Word is much easier to obey than parts that require sacrifice. Jesus learned obedience by the things he suffered and we shouldn’t think we escape some of life’s hard lessons if God’s own Son suffered.

It is as much glorious as it is rigorous. There are things in my life that are much different than I expected. Expectations are always a problem for me. I seem to have a straight path in mind, a point “A” to “B” view of things. That is probably the part of my brain that leans toward math and science advancing ahead of wonderment and creativity. I have particularly enjoyed seeing God’s creativity in a whole new light the last two years. It has been an influence in connecting me to his imagination for my life. I know GOD has a purpose for my life but he also says he can imagine more than I can even think to ask him in Eph 3:20. The idea that I don’t have to figure it out or have a plan B has been so refreshing.

I love hearing the Ball Brothers sing the song Walk With Me and explain the rationale behind the song. You know two are better than one and a three fold cord is the strongest. In this day and age we need to have those honest people who help us see where the world, flesh or devil is trying to sway us. It is very subtile and cunning. I know I am thankful for my sister in the Lord and a brother in the Lord who tells me like it is. I can’t change other people or circumstances but I can always change my position and perspective.

This little lamb needs a Shepherd and is grateful for those who tend the sheep that tell me the truth. Without an eternal perspective right now, my life would be pretty dire. With it I can say, “walk with me, I am heading toward Jesus”

There’s no need to abandon the landmarks that have gotten me this far and I am sure my Lord will see me home.  Find someone today and tell them the honest truth. Share the love of God with someone today. Huge hugs, GOD does love you!

What Love

What Love New Manna


I remember the first time I heard this song. I had no idea what the next 15 years held. Now I can see that one thing remains. WHAT LOVE. Not my love for HIM. His love for me. I am so humbled by the fact that in spite of me, GOD loves me anyway. WHAT LOVE!

God continues to expose my character flaws and short comings and yes sin but not to the end to punish me but to give me a chance to do the next right thing. I wrote this 3 years ago on this song on You Tube and that’s the great thing about GOD. What is true then is still true now. “The kind of love you give and return without holding back may not make a difference that you can see right away in this temporal life. God calls us to love anyway. I will never regret loving with all my heart because the love never fails. ” Although I fail and stumble, GOD’s love never fails. I Cor 13:13 And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity. Charity is love in this verse.

My Good Father

Good Good Father by Chris Tomlin


Everything I learned can be summed up to what caressed me today from God’s Word…. Listen to my Father speak to me …. Debra I called you by name, before you were born I planned for you, I decided to love you before the world was made, I am a Father who can’t lie or leave and I give good gifts to my children, I have given you a hope and future and strengthened you with my words so you can remember my goodness and favor. You are my beloved and I adore you! My heart for you is joy which is your strength. I will guide your feet and keep your heart from falling. Abba…. Knowing this is God’s plan for me …. I totally surrender to his love and light…. I can’t go wrong this way, I have all I need and nothing to fear… If nothing else happens good in my circumstances I can shout from the rooftops he is faithful and forgets not his own. God’s love is such a force and overwhelming stream. Oh that we would be underwhelmed by fear and overwhelmed by this amazing LOVE that can never fail. What a glorious journey GOD has prepared for us…. lets walk in it.

Just see the manifestation of God’s holiness.

Open the eyes of my heart Lord.


Sometimes you just have to stop, be grateful, understand God is good no matter what happens and see his glory. The glory of God is the outward manifestation of his holiness. Bottom line, HE is HOLY. I can trust HIM. He will always be GOD and is immutable. Never changing means I don’t have to guess my way through this hard life. I can know that I know that I know that HE loves me. I can’t walk away from that fact. I am honor bound to Him. My hope, my calling (which God says it without repentance) and my entire life being is wrapped up in my God who is who he says he is and who loves me more than I can comprehend. There’s no quitting with that behind me and only grace for what lies before.


Ephesians Chapter 1


17 That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him:

18 The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints,

19 And what [is] the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power,

20 Which he wrought in Christ, when he raised him from the dead, and set [him] at his own right hand in the heavenly [places],

21 Far above all principality, and power, and might, and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this world, but also in that which is to come: